You may have already seen today many social media posts of precious families including this tag #worldadoptionday. It’s World Adoption Day and it was created “to celebrate the power and beauty of family brought together through adoption.” This year World Adoption Day is complicated for us. It is not what we hoped it would be.
For adoptive families World Adoption Day is often a day full of sweet memories – the first picture, the first meeting, the first hug, the first “mommy”, family introductions, standing before a judge, ALL those photos, and on and on.
This day is also a day of thinking about birth mothers – you may have seen this quote on Facebook. It expresses the feeling perfectly…
“A child born to another woman calls me mommy. The magnitude of that tragedy and the depth of that privilege are not lost on me.”-Jody Landers
Adoption is a beautiful thing that comes from tragedy. It is always a hard and messy situation. People are always hurt. While I will never fully be able to imagine how hard it is for birth mothers, I think I have a slightly better understanding this year. Though she was not born from my body, I feel a deep loss for a child I thought would be mine forever. When we finalized our last adoption on June 1st I never imagined I would feel this loss come World Adoption Day. I gave my heart to her fully. I cared for her daily. I tried my best to be her mother. I gave her all of me. I loved her. I was deeply and forever scarred by that love.
But I need you to know something…
God calls us to do hard things,
and He never promises answers or explanations. I don’t know why God had us go through everything we have this past year and a half. I don’t have to know. I trust Him. I trust Him with my life, and I trust Him with hers. I don’t think we will ever adopt again, but I do think we will be foster parents again some day. Guys, it’s an important calling! It’s hard and messy, but as long as kids don’t have families we will be burdened to give our home. I do think our family needs lots of rest and recovery right now. I don’t want anyone to read our story and be scared of fostering or adoption. Awareness is a good thing.
God gave us another gift through adoption 4 yrs ago. Our Caspian is an incredible little boy, and we are thankful for him every day. If you follow me on social media you know he brings a lot of life and laughter to our home. Adoption is a beautiful thing that comes from tragedy. He has a lot of tragedy in his little past, but we have seen countless miracles in his life. We have no doubt God has big plans for this little boy. We are humbled and abundantly blessed to be a part of those big plans.